A sickening admission

As a loner, and an introvert, I have never wanted nor cared much for/about human contact in a big way. I am content to live out my life in much solitude, only stepping out to do the profession that I love: teaching.

However, perhaps it's my old age creeping up on me, perhaps it's the experiences of the past 5 weeks, perhaps its the drugs I've been taking talking...but, I can now say I would like to meet a woman to be with and eventually marry.

I suppose that in reality, this position has always been as such, but I feel now more so than ever that this is something I would indeed like. It does make me slightly ill, this admission however.

Lately, everyone in our family but me and my sister has been getting freaking married! Or should I say "re-married." One of my mother's sisters got re-hitched. Less than a year later, my mother who had been "dating" this dude for a whopping 6? (this is a generous 6) months got re-hitched.

As before, I am in no rush, and I will not compromise much to find/acquire said woman. So, I am not expecting anything to happen for the next foreseeable 30 years. But, it's that thought nagging there.

And, it's damn annoying.