Uno & Affirmation

One year ago on this date, I was chopped open & was delivered a new liver. Happy anniversary to me!

I've been thinking about this post for a while as one might imagine, and I had several ways to tackle what I wanted/felt the need to say.

However, lately a sentiment has crept into my brain:

As of today, I have changed the new year's celebration for myself. This date will now be my new New Year's date.

And with all new year celebrations, comes those silly resolutions. I never believed in/subscribed to those silly resolutions because I thought they were silly things people told themselves to make themselves feel better.

Kind of like religion, ironically...but, I digress...

The past month or so, I have desperately sought to change something for the better. What I have come up with may be a ginormous bite that I can't even begin to chew on, but it's what I've come up with.

A highlight of my week is walking my dog and listening to the curmudgeonly Tony Kornheiser rant and rave about topical things on his Washington D.C. radio podcast.

I am a curmudgeon, a loner, a person who doesn't generally like people; I want to be left mostly alone.

My man Kornheiser typifies what I am in many respects, minus the bank account.

I want to change something though. Despite what someone once told me about nothing good coming out of trying to change, I'm doing it anyway. (Ironically, this person changed some things about themselves for the better recently, so it's weird that this person holds said belief.)

It will be virtually impossible to change this thing. It's not in my nature, it's not in my DNA, it hasn't been my life experience to do such a thing or think such a way. I will try it to the best of my ability though:

Affirmations - in New Age and New Thought terminology refers primarily to the practice of positive thinking - fostering a belief that "a positive mental attitude supported by affirmations will achieve success in anything."

I am going to TRY to think more positively about things via affirmation. Try. Yes, try.

First, I would just like to give a shout out to the doctors and nurses who cared for my ignorant ass. In all honesty, there was really only one day in which I was a total jackass. Otherwise, I treated them extremely well, and they did so in kind. I owe them a lot and I tell them so every time I go in. This anniversary is just as much of a reflection on me and my ability/willingness to fight, but their skill, professionalism, and their heart.

Finally, many thanks to the very select few who provided great comfort & great assistance during this difficult time for me.

Thank you!